Gray.

I just really want to move on.

I've worked through most of my emotions...well at least the ones relating to this loss and what it means to me.

A few things that helped:

*Most everyone who commented and shared their thoughts or opinions. Except that one girl who had intelligent things to say like "Let's just bomb them all!"

*This post at One Good Thing with the letter from a reader at the bottom.

*I sent off a few letters to my senators and representatives and you should too. Go here to do it, if you're so inclined. Max wants his dream wedding people! Thanks to my friend Rebecca for taking time out of her busy Starbucks Bile sipping to send me the link.

*Watching The Daily Show which always makes me think things are going to be okay.

*Realizing that maybe people are just scared and don't know what to think and Bush tells them he's going to keep them safe and that's appealing in these uncertain times. Like the letter Flea posted at her site. Things are changing faster than people are ready to accept and that doesn't make them stupid or ignorant...it just means that changes are going to be slower to happen.

Things that did not help me through this time:

*Discussing politics with friends who are polar opposites of me.

Note to self: do not do this ever again. It may be wiser to have a wrestling match about politics with my big brother who is always right. I'd probably come out, if not physically unscathed, emotionally I'd at least be fine. Republican Friends + Questioning of the Tenets They Hold Dear= Nuclear Explosion. OOPS!

*It did not help to yell at Logan who is in full agreement with my political views. It doesn't feel good to be incredulous with someone who is just as incredulous. It only emphasizes the helplessness you're feeling.

*It did not help to realize I have not had my hair cut in NINE (9) months. To realize I have the worst hair ever. I thought it was bad way back in February when I got the Bad Cut. But this, this is hellish and there should be a law against hair like this. Mrs Kennedy may be enduring perpetual bed head but my hair. Oh my hair deserves it's own entry. I apologize for trying to slip it in here.

*Stroking Choppable did not help. He's still gross.

*It did not help to make play dough for preschool. It was supposed to be brown but with my mood and all it turned out matching my mood. In my defense brown is not an easy color to mix with food coloring:

Stay tuned for more talk about Madison's Hellish Birthday Party coming our way soon....and my hair. Jesus Christ my hair!

Comments

[sarah]

I'm so glad that some things are helping.
Stroking Choppable is not advisable. Choppable looks like a Republican.
That post at one good thing was great, especially the letter.
Sometimes, a haircut can be a very positive thing, but you never know when it's going to be one of those times.

[Very Mom]

It's been such a confusing/frustrating time for everyone who did not [or would not have] voted for Bush. I could have told you to STAY AWAY FROM CHOPPABLE. If it helps, my hair has GOT to be worse than yours. I'm trying to grow it out, but if I post about it, I'll be accused of being a Fussyite.

[e]

your hair? MY Hair! A "friend" told me I had Crystal Gayle hair the other day (I don't! really, I don't!) and it has spurned me on to find a new 'do. Next week, while DH is out of the country, I'm going to go get my hair cut. Either it will be a wonderful change or I will resort to locking myself in my house for the next 4 yrs.

[Mir]

Hang in there. You'll be okay, and so will your hair. Probably. I am still in denial, myself (both about the election and my hair)....

[Ninotchka]

I've decided that I'm in love with John Stewart. You're right, watching his show helps...a lot. :)

[Karen]

I have 3 (yes it's freakish but it's 3) fine arts degrees. I took an entire semester of a class called "Color" I CAN NOT mix brown frosting out of other colors. You are not alone.

Thank you Jon Stewart for making me feel that way about other things too.

[Carrie]

Yes, I probably differ from you politically and morally and spiritually, but I enjoy reading your funnies. I haven't cut my hair in 7 months so I've almost caught up and I was just propositioned by a man while visiting my sister in NY....see what longer hair will get you...:)

God Bless you and your hair,

Carrie