Session #2

Therapist: "I think you've lost your spontanaeity. You need to play more. Maybe when your friend's little girl was upset you could have nudged her mom and said, 'Let's go play dress up with her.' "

Me, developing panic-y tunnel vision and numbness in my arms: "I don't like to play. Logan plays in this family."

Therapist: "Well, you do play, you just choose not to."

Me: "My attempts to 'play' have not gone well."

Then I started to feel suicidally desperate because if it's going to take 'playing'? Dress up? And other things? With kids? To make me better? Then guess who's not getting better?

I'll give you a hint. It's the girl who plays Barbie by saying, "Hello, how are you?" over and over and over until her daughter begs her to stop playing with her anymore.